He loves me, He loves me not???

I'm still patiently waiting for you to give me an answer.. This has gotta be the hardest thing I've ever done...Harder than when I left you two months back...because at least then I had the hopes that we will meet again and that I will be back to you... But now, I'm just waiting.. waiting unknowingly!!! Can you believe I still have no clue where this is headed? I'm just scared... scared that you've had enough of all this..enough of me and that you are ready to move on with your life... I'm just paranoid, right? I mean after all the things that we've been through, you won't make me the bakra, will you? Why do I feel this way tonight? I can't sit still, I can't eat, I can't sleep and I have a really bad feeling in my heart..........I'm saying all the prayers that I know, ran on the treadmill like a mad chic, spent most part of the day with my grandparents...Yet, the uneasiness remains... Can somebody explain why the HELL do I feel this way?!?!? :(