Warning: Extremely emotional and straight from the heart!! Read at your own risk!!

I’m sitting all by myself tonight. There’s music playing in my laptop. I think I might get pasta for dinner. It’s cold as hell in here. I’m all cuddled up in my throw. Get the picture? Feels like I’m reliving my K.C life, all over again. Only difference is I’m in Pune and I love love love this feeling of being alone after a long time! :)

This has been a very interesting month – I started working, again and honestly, that has helped me keep a check on my sanity. I’m so thankful to “AM” who is my guardian angel! :) The weekdays have been super busy and weekends are for parents, friends and the likes. So, you get the drift, right? Life became very routine and boring BUT peaceful, nonetheless!

And then of course he came to the country. And just one mere sms from him, and I was a basketcase! Well, I think he may be engaged now! Said he was to be, at least. I don’t know! But I solemnly swear this would be the very last post that I mention the boy. And so please let me say all I want, just hear me rant! And then I will be done with it!

I was just thinking back to how it all started and if given a choice, I swear I would do the “chicken dance to you all over again”. Beats logic right? I was looking back at pictures on FB, on my laptop and in every pic, I looked so happy, smiling and contented. It was simple pleasures you gave me, yet you always managed to put a smile on my face! You always cracked me up and I had some of the best times with you and no matter how this thing ended, I definitely would want to do that again.

Here’s to US :)))

Starting with the chicken dance, our zillion road trips across the country, Sodexho days, our amazing friends who made life even more beautiful for us, me shopping endlessly at Bath & Body Works, you rolling your eyes at me to get out asap, BIG BEAR HUGS, throwing snow on each other, long drives in the Nissan and the Galant, pigging out at Ziggies at 3 am, driving through McD’s early morning, Cold Stone ice cream on a cold KC winter night, scary movies, life in MSU as students, graduation day, both of us jumping for joy when you got your big break at STL, the Haseltines, Olive, Gunner, Marley, Chloey, dancing at Zan for Jay Sean(even though you sucked! ok ok, I know you tried for my sake and that was super cute!), sushi in STL, walking in the Plaza at night, and then me holding onto you so tight the day I left coz I wasn’t sure what would happen....... This is for you.... It’s over, I promise. I will heal.



I'm so tired of being here

Suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

'Cause your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone



These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase



When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have

All of me



You used to captivate me

By your resonating life

Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind

Your face it haunts

My once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away

All the sanity in me



I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me

I've been alone all along



- Courtsey "Evanescence – My Immortal"

I’ve never felt so lonely, afraid, unwanted, nervous, anxious, bitter, confused, torn before. It definitely doesn't help that I'm PMS'ing!! My emotions are all haywire. Could you love/hate someone so strongly at the same time? :(

As random as it gets.

Can I skip over May/June? I'd like to bury myself temporarily and resurface after June. Period.

We're havin the last laugh after all!

Ha ha. So much for Mumbai Indians being favorites. Chennai showed the entire crowd who the "real super kings" of IPL 3 were on Sunday at the DY Patil stadium! Dhoni showed the nation why he is aptly termed "Captain Cool". His bowling changes and fielding placements were mindblowing. Suresh Raina proved once again why he is Mr. Dependable! He was amazing - he scored 57 from just 23 balls, took one wicket and took a superb running catch.. ok. I dont know why I'm beginning to sound like the Times of India sports column here.. BUT.. let me say this.. We were so awesome, congrats CSK! You made us proud :))

I just realized.. What am I gonna do now with my evenings? No more IPL! :(

MI...... RIP =)

The finals of IPL 3 tonight.. and Mumbai Indians fans.. What can I say?!? Its funeral time for you guys!! :P Goooo CSK. Show em what we got! :))

I gotta feeling... that tonight's gonna be a good, good night.... Woooooooooo Hooooooooo!!! :)))))
CSK whistle podu!! :)

MSD, Tussi Great Ho :)

Just watch this clipping(Courtsey: You Tube), imagine a room full of CSK supporters, all having their fingers crossed, hoping for a miracle to happen... :) The bestest part of it was that we actually won!! All thanks to our superstar captain.. Dhoni :) He kept his cool, played the shots when he had to and fired two bigg sixes off the very last over.. A zillion thanks to Irfan Pathan for bowling those loose deliveries.. But the way, MSD was smashing, even the best bowler in the world wouldn't have been able to make a difference :)) The title of this post says it all.. Love you Dhoni and team.. Hoping for an awesome victory against the Chargers and what better day to play it than the 22nd April.. :)))) My fam's already made big plans to get together, with drinks and dinner to cheer on our home team.. Praying for them.. As I write this post, I just wonder...
What on earth would I be doing without cricket, IPL, CSK and team Dhoni? =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OxuelxelhMg

Ain't I adorable?

Ok. Just ignore my tanned look.. Chennai's heat is definitely ON!
Courtsey: Shan's iphone!

CSK.. CSK.. CSK!!!!

 I watched the Chennai Super Kings live in action at Chepauk two nights back and it was just KICK ASS! I'm so glad I chose to go and I had the time of my life!! I've always loved cricket and I have always loved watching live action in the stadium! This time around, I was not even sure if I was going to enjoy it. But I was soooo wrong! First off, I had to shop at 6 different stores to find a yellow top(ya ya.. I wished they had a better team color) and I hate yellow! But I finally managed to lay my hands on one.. and then of course on our way to the stadium we had to stop and get flags to wave, whistles to blow and all that blah.. Bangalore had decided to bat first and they lost a wicket in the very first over, just 10 minutes after we settled into our seats. From then on, there was no sitting down! There was jazzy Tamil "kuthu" songs being played in the highest decibel, Sivamani's drum beats and not to mention all the noise we created! Our team was desperate for a win.. A loss meant the end of IPL 3 for them! So they needed all the support from the home ground and boy, we were LOUD! Especially when we had to bat.. Our opener Murali Vijay was mindblowing.. He hit six 6's and was super quick!! We loved his innings.. and he certainly had the entire crowd rooting him, with him being local boy and everything!! And of course, in typical CSK fashion, they took the match to the very last over and needed some 10 runs off the last 6 balls and we all thought it was going to be impossible. But all thanks to our darling Raina! He smashed a 6 off the last ball in the penultimate over and it was a no-ball, which meant a FREE HIT!!! WOHOO!!! The crowd went beserk! I dont really remember, but I think at this point, I was standing ON my chair and jumping! And of course we won in the last over, with 4 balls to spare!! Thats CSK for you.... in your face! =) I've not felt this good in a long, long time and again, I'm just glad I chose to go for the match.. Can't wait to do this again! Pics in Shan's phone.. Will follow shortly!! Happy April, my favorite month is here!!!!!! =)